Oh, hey there, again.

I've been wondering, I do that a lot nowadays. I mean I wonder and ponder and think and try to predict my future. I have no clue where i'll be in ten years. Much less one year. Its all up in the air. I could possibly be working at a studio, I could be a bum on the street, or just maybe I could be right where I am right now. Nowhere. I see my self, my life at a stanstill. Its not such a bad thing. Not much is happening to me, or I am not doing much to myself. What I mean is, i'm not making things happen for me. I feel in a way, trapped. Its been two years since I graduated high school. My life doesn't seem to have changed much since that last day of school. I lost some weight, I've gained some weight, I've had surgery, and all the while I still feel like i'm stuck in the doldrums. Yes some might say, I am doing something. My photography is the only escape I have right now. I think what I need is to is submerse myself into a different culture. I need different settings. I can't live in a place where there is so much nothing to do. I guess that I am just releasing some steam. But I don't like having all this steam pent up in the first place. I want to live carefree, and just not be so anxious. I guess in time. But thats besides the point.
I can not wait to return to school. I am itching to be challenged. I even thought of going back to my old job, but that just isn't an option anymore. All that place is, is a trap. A trap that you could escape at any moment but you cant because you are always living from paycheck to paycheck. Its depressing. But alas I perservere in some way, shape or form.
Tomorrow is friday and I have nothing special planned. I guess I could sleep on it and decide in the morning. Hanging out with friends isnt the same anymore. What could I do that is fun, yet not too stupid that only takes one person. Hmm. Ill have to think on it.

my clutter. just like me.

Night One

This is my first blog. I effectively can not stay off of the internet. Its a problem that i'm not quite ready to deal with yet. Maybe when an asteriod hits the planet or some other catastrophic event. I like to write and I like to have people read what I say, so this, I believe is the best platform. No drama, no layouts, no dealing with who to add or not. Its just words and probably the occasional photograph. Considering I am an aspiring photographer. Or I shoud just call my self a Photographer as of this moment. Yes its done. Nonetheless I hope to write and have people read this. Hopefully my career will lead me into many events and I will post them here. More exciting news and things to come. Stay tuned.

ps. i will try to post a new pic everytime i post. so here is the first of many.
Oh this was a fun day, the running was staged. All for the photo op. I should sell these pictures better. Ok here goes. We were running from la migra when suddenly we were transported to a beautiful beach where we ran directly into the water and were never heard of again since.