I finally got my braces removed. So So excited.
Too many years!
WOOT WOOT!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Time
Its been a while, a couple weeks really. Not much at all. I'm back at school, ready to start a new year. This time I feel like I need to to things right. Not just because its a new year, but because its about time I got my shit together. I don't know how else to put it. I don't even want to mention work, its not worth mentioning anymore. Its something I do to make money, i've settled on that fact, and when I get out of that place, I have another life away from that place.
The new year will bring me a lot of new things, people and experiences that I welcome with open arms. I just hope I can handle it. Family is more important to me than ever, but I feel like I can't connect anymore. I miss the old days where it wasnt so complicated, but i'm itching to get out on my own and live my own life. Soon, I hope.
Oh life!
The new year will bring me a lot of new things, people and experiences that I welcome with open arms. I just hope I can handle it. Family is more important to me than ever, but I feel like I can't connect anymore. I miss the old days where it wasnt so complicated, but i'm itching to get out on my own and live my own life. Soon, I hope.
Oh life!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Cheers To The New Year
I think I am addicted to online shopping. I am a complete sucker for deals that offer me two dollars off. Its quite a bad habit but I just cannot stop. Its almost the new year and I am getting serious. Serious about my life I suppose. Returning to my old job was done out of sheer necessity rather than willingness. Lately i've come to realize once again that I do not belong there. I belong on the streets capturing life and people. So many opportunities are wasted working at that damn establishment. I get so frustrated keeping all this to myself. But no more. I think 2008 is the year for me. Among other things I think I will be a much happier man. Cheers to 2008!
Monday, November 12, 2007
Death
Its like you live your life walking around, doing things, forming relationships, then one day. Its all taken away. Death is a normal part of life. It happens to everyone at one point or another. Its been hard on this family. I don't have the words to explain it. So devastating. I don't know if they'll be able to recover from this one. So young. So sad.
"People do not die for us immediately, but remain bathed in a sort of aura of life which bears no relation to true immortality but through which they continue to occupy our thoughts in the same way as when they were alive. It is as though they were traveling abroad." ~Marcel Proust
"People do not die for us immediately, but remain bathed in a sort of aura of life which bears no relation to true immortality but through which they continue to occupy our thoughts in the same way as when they were alive. It is as though they were traveling abroad." ~Marcel Proust
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Soon
October, its done, Its November. New Year approaching. Another year almost gone.
That about sums it up for me. I don't know where this year went. Thats how I always feel though. In my brain all the things that I experienced this year are playing on fast forward.
Lots of new things, but I guess thats what life is about. Change and growth. I can say i've done both this year. Gladly I feel good and healthy. Nothing could be better. I'm feeling optimistic about 2008. I know it will bring its fair share of roller coaster emotions and drama. But I welcome it. I guess life would be pretty bland without it.
Work today, same as yesterday. School tomorrow. Its becoming a little tedious, but I still do it. Not for anyone but myself. I wan't to be able to say that I am a college graduate. If that means anything at all.
Soon, or soon enough things are going to change, for the best I hope but who knows how people react. Its about time.
I picked up smoking again. Nasty habit I know, but it de-stresses me. So does yoga but that is just one day a week. Mom found out on saturday. She didn't yell, it was odd. I think shes letting me make my mistakes. So I could learn from them obviously. Nevertheless I think i'll quit on my own. Soon.
I'm content yet I want more. Its better that i've been lately. I feel good.
I want to be a photographer, a writer, a movie maker, I want to make people feel good. I want to entertain people. It seems so simple but why is it so hard. Who knows? Maybe I don't have 'it'. Whatever 'it' is. I'm still lookin' for it.
I wonder what my future holds for me.
Listening to my music calms me right now. It relaxes my anxieties. Its absurd.
New people, new surroundings, new everything is what I need. Soon.
That about sums it up for me. I don't know where this year went. Thats how I always feel though. In my brain all the things that I experienced this year are playing on fast forward.
Lots of new things, but I guess thats what life is about. Change and growth. I can say i've done both this year. Gladly I feel good and healthy. Nothing could be better. I'm feeling optimistic about 2008. I know it will bring its fair share of roller coaster emotions and drama. But I welcome it. I guess life would be pretty bland without it.
Work today, same as yesterday. School tomorrow. Its becoming a little tedious, but I still do it. Not for anyone but myself. I wan't to be able to say that I am a college graduate. If that means anything at all.
Soon, or soon enough things are going to change, for the best I hope but who knows how people react. Its about time.
I picked up smoking again. Nasty habit I know, but it de-stresses me. So does yoga but that is just one day a week. Mom found out on saturday. She didn't yell, it was odd. I think shes letting me make my mistakes. So I could learn from them obviously. Nevertheless I think i'll quit on my own. Soon.
I'm content yet I want more. Its better that i've been lately. I feel good.
I want to be a photographer, a writer, a movie maker, I want to make people feel good. I want to entertain people. It seems so simple but why is it so hard. Who knows? Maybe I don't have 'it'. Whatever 'it' is. I'm still lookin' for it.
I wonder what my future holds for me.
Listening to my music calms me right now. It relaxes my anxieties. Its absurd.
New people, new surroundings, new everything is what I need. Soon.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Electro Pop
I must say, myspace is a great way to find new artists. Yelle is someone I found on myspace, just browsing. Her music is so catchy and just good.
Heres some of it.
and:
check her out!
Heres some of it.
and:
check her out!
Monday, October 1, 2007
It Is What It Is
I should be sleeping once again. But I can't, I have too many things on my mind. Lately i've become this one huge stressball. I never show it though. I try way too hard to keep it all inside. Its pathetic really, but I worry over the smallest things and overlook the big events in my life. Of course I worry over the major things, but it doesnt impact me as much, or so I believe. People stress me out the most. People, people, people. What can I say. Everyone is so different, so complex, so very very not one dimesional. I think I used to see people that way, but now that i've grown older and added more experiences to the list of things that happen in my usually mundane life I can finally being to make out some sort of picture of human behavior. We are so multi-faceted that it could take a life time to actually get to know one another. Thats the reason people get married, or so I hope. It should be simple. You find the one you're meant to be with, you go through the motions and date, meet the parents, go out some more, then someone asks someone to marry the other. And thats it! It should be done, right? No, its really not. People do not really know one another. So I guess that the reason for getting married is to get to know one single person a little more, just a little because we never really get to know eachother. Or at least thats what I believe. Nevertheless thats whats exciting about this whole process. You are always getting to know eachother, and never letting it get boring. Its seems so simple. Yet the divorce rate is so high in the US. Why? I beleive it is because people don't like what they find. Yeah, you fall in love with a person you think you know, but once all the romance and fun is over you realize who you really married and thats when it gets ugly. Its so sad.
I don't know where in this post I decided to talk about marriage and divorce, but I guess thats just where it went. On to less important things. I just returned to my old job. Hopefully its a temporary situation. But you never know. Its quite frustrating. But I guess we all have that survival instinct in us, and mine just said to me "i'm hungry". My wallet also was feeling pretty famished so I swallowed all my pride and went back to that old place at which I have spent many miserable and equally fun times. I guess its all a cycle. Life that is.
'Chained'
I don't know where in this post I decided to talk about marriage and divorce, but I guess thats just where it went. On to less important things. I just returned to my old job. Hopefully its a temporary situation. But you never know. Its quite frustrating. But I guess we all have that survival instinct in us, and mine just said to me "i'm hungry". My wallet also was feeling pretty famished so I swallowed all my pride and went back to that old place at which I have spent many miserable and equally fun times. I guess its all a cycle. Life that is.
'Chained'
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